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My Lovely Dad
Tuesday 27 December 2011 | 09:00 | 2 Girly Says
Hai dan assalamualaikum peeps . hmm , hari ni seha nak story pasal ayah seha . sapa yg tak berminat nak dgr . its sokey lah . tetiba ingt dkt ayah :'( hmm . seha kehilangan seseorg yg seha sayang time umur seha 4 tahun . kecik kan ? yeah ! Tpi nasib seha ingt lg muke ayah seha . biasalah anak ayah katekan . Oneday tu , time tu seha dkt kampung . time tu ayah sakit . ayah ade dkt Hospital batu pahat . *lupe name hospital tu . seha baring sebelah katil ayah . tgk je ayah sampai tertidur . time tu umur seha 3 tahun . Then , time umur 4 tahun tu .. seha pelik knapa ramai org dtg rumah nenek seha . seha tgk family2 seha semua nangis . seha tak tahu knapa . n then seha nampak ayah seha baring dgn pakai serbe putih . tahu kan ape seha ckp ? seha pelik lah kan . knapa ayah cemtu ? knapa semua baca yaasin ? mmg time tu tgh blur gilaa . lepas tu mak seha pegi dkt ayah tau . mcm duduk sebelah ayah lah kan . seha pun pegi je lah ikut mak . seha tgk ayah , sejuk mate seha tgk muke ayah . Lepas seha tgk muke ayah . seha tgk muke mak . seha tanye mak .. Me:mak , knapa nangis ? ayah knapa ? Mak:..........*terus menngis malam selepas kebumikan ayah . mak ckp dgn someone dkt telefon rumah . seha pegi dkt mak . baring dkt riba mak seha . after umur seha 6 tahun .seha tetibe tanya mak . Me:mak . knapa ayah dah lame tak balik ? Mak:Adik.....ayah dah meninggal dikk . *muke mak dah nak nngis . Me:Yeke ? Hmm . sedih bila dpt tahu yg ayah kesyangan seha meninggal . rasa mcm tersisih . n jeles bila tgk org ade ayah . dpt gurau2 dgn ayah dia . sedangkan seha . terpakse bersabar je . hmm . Thank to kak anis n ruzaini sbb bagi semngat . sgt2 menghargainye . n thanks to lutfi shah sbb doakan ayah seha :') seha tahu seha kena sabar n tabah . Thank you very so much sbb sentiasa ade disisi seha . kak anis . thanks sgt2 . okay . tu je post kali ni . kbaii . n assalamualaikum . I will pray for you
Tuesday 20 December 2011 | 11:41 | 0 Girly Says
Hai dn assalamualaikum peeps , dah berape hari aku tak updates ? serius tak kira pun . okay . Seha just nak ckp thanks for follower's blog n follower's twitter . n thanks for yg support seha . selalu stalk blog seha bila seha updates . Thank you so much . sgt menghargai nye ;) Hehe . hmm .. tajuk dkt atas tu kan kan . Act for my beloved friend . I can't say her name . Seha nak ckp seha sedih now . sbb my friend masuk hospital.ICU tau . baru tahu pagi td . tahu dri cousin dia tau . Ni yg dia ckp .. You:seha . ni cousin BFF kau . aku nak ckp yg dia masuk ICU . dia tak sedar kan diri smlm . Me:What ? seriously ? mcm mane keadaan dia skang ? Dia sakit apa ? You:Betul lah . dia masih tak sedar . Sakit Jantung Me:Ohhmyygoshh ! serius ? doktor ckp ape ? You:entah . mungkin pertumbuhan . Me:Hmmm :'( aku akan doakan dia . sorry sbb tak dpt dtg . jauh .. n say to mak dia . yg aku ckp suh sabar . bnyak kan berdoa . yea You:oke Me was like ... what ? my friend ? knape dia ? knape bukan aku ? knape dia yg kena ? knape ? T_T Knape mesti kawan aku ? 7 year kiteorg dah jd Kawan . Tlong ! Ya Allah aku tak sanggup kehilangan dia . PLease ! *sambil menangis tgk msg dia yg lame2 . Apa yg akan trjd if dia tak berjaye diselamat kan ? Snggup ke aku tgk dia pergi cemtu ? Aku tak snggup . Tak sanggup ! Aku harap sgt aku jumpe dia next year . bagi lah peluang dkt dia . Ya Allah . Tabah kan lah hati dia dan family dia Ya Allah . sesungguh nye Engkau Maha Berkuasa . Ampun kan lah segala kesalahan yg dia telah buat . Dia ade hantar msg before masuk hospital ... You:Hmm . weyy . hari ahad ni aku balik melake . hari selase pulak aku kena stay hospital . rabu aku kena buat operation . Aku harap kau doakan aku sembuh ae . Doktor ckp if aku lemah smangat mungkin aku takkan ade dkt dunia ni lg . so . doakan aku ae . Me:Okay . aku doakan kau . tapi .. ape sakit kau ? Kau tak balas ? snggup kau berahsia dgn aku supaye aku tak sedih . Kau sggup rase kesakitan tu sorg2 . Aku syg kau sgt2 . knapa kau tak ckp ape yg kau tgh hadapi skang ? knapa perlu kau tanggung sorg2 sedangkan kau ade aku . citer lah ape bende yg trjd dkt kau . jgn simpan dlam hati . T_T aku sayang kau !! aku snggup buat ape je utk kau , Kau KAWAN yg paling aku sayang . Bnyak kenangan aku dgn kau . aku tahu kite just kawan karib . tapi aku dah anggap kau akak aku . aku rase kau je yg paham aku . *sambil menangis tak henti2 . I have asked my grandmother. what should I do? .. My grandmother:Hmm . kite berdoa jelah utk dia . kita tak dpt melawat dia . dia jauh . Me:Hmm *sambil nangis My grandmother:kalau dia pergi . kite anggap je itu sebagai takdir dia . Me:adik sayang dia sgt embah . dah tak tahu nak buat ape . My grandmother:Bersabar jelah dikk . Hmm . Aku taknak kehilangan org yg aku sayang utk kali kedua . perit rase nye . mungkin Allah lebih syg kan My beloved Dad . Aku taknak kehilangan kawan aku pulak . Aku mungkin tak akan dpt jumpe org mcm kau . I Love u friend . semoge kau cepat sembuh . cepat baik . n Aku sayang kau sgt2 !! Kbaii dan Assalamualaikum :'( BlogWalking :)
Thursday 1 December 2011 | 11:30 | 0 Girly Says
Hi dan assalamualaikum readers :) act tadi seha blogwalking lah kan . yela . dah bosan2 cenggini . blog lah jawap nye . seha terbace satu post ney . Ya Allah . sedih sangat , smpai seha pun da meleleh kan kan . hurm . neyy pun tak ckp nak copy right actually . hewhew . sory2 . tak tahu orng nye :DD ************************************* "You started to change before you died. I don't know what else to say than to express our canvo in my blog . 10th of May 2010 I just got home from school and i receivedtwo text message from you . I ignored them and went bathing .After taking my bath , I watched tv for awhile and I realized that I haven't replied your message so quickly went to my room to take my cell . I received another 2 messages from you so equally , I received 4 messages from you . You:B ? You:B ? Mana b ? You:Reply la :( You:B?mana b?knapa lambat sangat balik? I was seriously waay too scared if he might be scolding mefor not replying his messages for quite awhile. So quickly messages him, to not make him worry about me. Me:Sayang?Sorry tak reply td . I balik sekolah terus mandi td . Then I tgk tv terlupa msg you. Sorry? You marah ke? You:Oh okay okay. Tak, I tak marah. Tp jangan buat I risau k bie? Me:okay okay . sayang , I'm sorry . You:Tkpe , mwa mwa hehe . B dekat mana ni? Me:Dekat rumah.Lepas ni nak pegi makan dgn mak.You? You:Ala ,nak makan dekat mana? Jumpa lah I b :( I dkt cabin. Bosan . Me:I LAPAR ! You:Makan dgn I k bie? Me:I want to but mak suruh teman dia lah syg You:Okay okay. I main badminton dgn budak budak lah. Me:Okay, Take care busuk. You:Mana ada busuk. B ah buchuk macham, Kalau balik awal , dtg rumah I :( Me:Eh sejak bila jadi rempit? okay, tgk lah dulu. You:Takda tgk tgk. Kena juga Me:Ye yee You:Alaaa Me:Huh? You:B marah? Me:Eh tkda ah . karut je You:Hm, Okay Me:Aiyk? You:Dtg! Me:InsyaAllah, kalau sempat. Kalau tak sempat, Jumpa malam k syg? You:Okay b, B . I nak main badminton jap? Me:Okay okay.Bye.Love you. Take care dear. See you You:Okay, Love you so much. Take care too.Miss you love you.See you too. B jumpa I jugak harini, tak kira :( Me:Okay syg. don't want that sad face You:Okay okay :D dah Me:Main happy lagi, K bye You:Mwa, Love you But then, I didn't manage to came and meet him in the evening. So I did meet him at night (The last night we spent our time together). So my mum sent me to his condo at 8 something. But he wasn't there then i messages him. Me:Mana you? I kt cabin dah You:Jap.I tgh siap nak turun b After a few minutes , my friends came and sit in a table with me. And we talked and laughed waay too much. And after a few minutes laters then, hecame but yeah, I know he wouldn'tcame to me first. So he went to cafe to buy cigarettes if i'm not mistaken. After that, You came to me and sit beside me. Then my friends seemed curious when they looked at arwah. Alyn:Man,asal muka kau lain do? Bay:Aah doh! You:Mana ada lain lah.You,muka I lain ke? Me:Ntah,macam sama je kot. Haha.Lain ke dia, Eryn? Eryn:Aku rasa sama je Fine then, When we got bored. we went to badminton court to play badminton. And yeahs,I was the one who took the racquet and you asked me to put back because you wanna spend your time with me at that night. You:B, takyah lah main. Dduk sini dgan I. Me:Ala, kejap je lah You:Mhm , okay When I was playing the badminton. you can't stop staring at me while smiling. Everytime I looked at you, you were staring at me and smiling. And after a few minutes, Isat beside you and hold your right hand. Me:You, knapa you lain harini? You:Mana ada I lain b. I sama je Me: okay okay Then after 10 minutes kot, Nisha asked me to accompany her to the lobby. And I said okay.But you refused to let me go. Then I told you that it takes 5 mintes . Then you said k.When I came back to the court. You were playing the badminton with icantrecallwho . When I entered the court, as most of the people know that the door sounds annoying and when I opened it, everyone will look at me and you shouted "B" . And I said "Oh Hai" with a very weird face. I was just making an annoying face like that hehe . And at 10.30pm, he took me to in front of the court You:*Holding my face. B pandang I. Me:*Staring in his eyes You:Ingat ni sampai bila-bila. I sayang you sgt sgt. Ingat ni, Sayang sgt sgt . Me:I pun sayang you sgt sgt *Small laughs You:I sayang b sgt sgt. Jgan tinggal kan I. k? Me:Ye lah, I dah promise kan dulu? knapa you lain ni? You:Mana ada I lain lah syg. I sama je After a few minutes then, mu mom called and asked me to go home. Then, Me:Youuu! You:Haaaa Me:Nak I balik pukul berapa? You:Ala, tak bole balik. Kena dduk dgn I Me:Betul betul boleh tak? You:Betul lah. Ala, jgn lah balik :( Me:Mengada eh. (On the phone , Ma, amik lagi 10 minutes lah Mak:Okay After 10 minutes later, mum messaged telling that she already at the guard house. Then I told arwah, he quickly take my both hands and say You: B, Ingat apa I pesan dekat u tdi smpai bila bila tau Me:Okay okay, I promise lah you. Pinky swear? Hahaha You:Hehe, Pinky swear. *kiss Me: Babaii You:Babai, I love u so much. take care Me:Love you too, and you too You:K bie Then I ran to mum's car and suddenly you shouted 'YAYA, I LOVE YOU!'. Then I shouted 'I LOVE YOU TOO MUAH MUAH' . That was the last time I heard your voice. Till now I'm still wanting and needing to hear you woice again, and allover again. But I know I can't. I hope your peace and surely, in a better and the best place. When I was in my car, I could see badmintom court and you were there, flying kisses to me. That's so sweet of you. And that was the last time I saw your face. your smile and your everything. When I reached home, you messages me You:B? Me: Eh hi. Cepatnya You:I rindu b. Me:Alololo . rindu you jugak sayang You:Tgh buat apa? Me:Tkda buat apa apa. You? You: Sama lah . Lapar Me:Pergi lah makan You:Nak pergi makan dgn Alfiq boleh? Me:Oh okay, Pergilah . take care You:K, jap . nak siap I didn't reply. Then, You:B? Me:Yes? You:Napa tak reply? Me:Lah, cakap nak siap . You:Okay okay, I dah nak pegi makan tau. Me:Okay, take care k. You:Okay, B nak drive jap. Jpg I msg balik. Me:Alright, elok elok After a few minutes , You:B? Me:Yo You:B jgn tinggal kan I? Me:Sayang, knapa dgan you ni? You:Tak, I takut b tinggal kan I Me:Mana adalah :'( You:Alololo , sorry sorry, Dah dah Me:Jgn cakap camtu lagi You:Okay okay, b I nak b ingat ni sampai bila bila, I sayang b sgt sgt. Ingat ni! Me:Okay sayang, I pun sayang u lg Lebih! Then you didn't reply my messages. I was kinda curious, but I don't know why that night I didn;t feel like calling you.I did asked my sister, where are you, why don't you reply my text and so on. My sister asked me to call you but I but I just don't know why I didn't make the things that I used to do, which is trying to reach to reach you and messages you till you replied mine. I didn't want to brother ypu lepak with your friends, maybe. So I fall asleep while waitig for you. I managed to sleep only for a few minutes. Then, Nisa called me. I didn't hear her calls at first. But then, my sister wake me up telling that there's someone calling me. I answered her call and I was waay 'mamai' that time. Me: Hello? Nisa:Ya? Yaya okay ta? Me:Okay je.knapa? Nisa:Ya. Aiman dah tak ada Ya. Me:hah? Nisa:Ya. Aiman dah tkde. wake up . wake up. Me:Jangan mengarut lah Nisa *I end the call Right after I end up Nisa's call . Amar (Eryn's boyfriend) call me. Amar:Hello Ya? Me:Ha? ada apa? Amar:Wei, aku dkt gate kecik Emerland Me:Ha?Asal? Amar:Wei, Ya , Aiman kau dah tkde au.Dia accident. Me:Weii. Betul betul lah . Amar:Betul lah . kau nak dtg tak? aku amik kau. Me:Aaa, takpa ah. Bye *End Then I quickly told both my parents that Aiman has already became arwah. My dad asked me to go take my wudhuk and pray all the best for arwah. So I quickly go and give Yassin to arwah. I repeat the surah, loads of times non-stop. There were loads of friends calling and messaging me but I managed to answer only some of them because I didn;t know what to say. My mind was blank angd all I thought that moment was, only ARWAH. And the saddest phone call I received on that morning was from Hazmie. He cried when he was on the phone with me. We didn't get to say anything than crying out loud.I couldn't stop crying and Hazmie told me to be strong. I didn't say anything, I couldn't stop crying. Oh God , I can't believe I'm srying right now, Hazmie, thanks for the supports k. Sayang kau! After half an hour later,my dad asked me to go to the horpital with him. My mum dad and my sister followed to the hospital. When we've arrived there, the first person I saw, was Kak Aisyah (Aiman's eldest sister). She came to me ang hugged me waay too tight! And both of us couldn't stop crying. After that, I hugged Aiman's mom. She was crying too but I can't believe that she was waay to strong accepting the fact that her son was not here anymore. I meet some of my friends there. all I can say is I couldn't stop crying. My eyes look asdfghjkl I don't know what to say. At the hospital, I didn't stop giving Aiman non-stop Yassin. Then, after half an hour later, someone shouted 'Amirul?' . Everyone stood up and quickly go to the 'forensik' 's room And the only 'thing' we saw was . Allahyarham Amirul Aiman's body. right in front of our eyes. I cried out loud. And it was the last time I hold his face.. He was so cold. And he look different. There ws a scar on his head. It was because the BANG he had in the accident. I don't know how to say this, my mind was so blank that time and I don't believe that I cried waay too bad that time" **************************************** Hewhew . dah abis . dah meleleh ke? nah tisu comel utk awak :') best kan . sedih+sweet , okayy bye . Assalamualaikum :DD |